have to admit:

Having a hard one today.
It's hard to keep focused on what's important when D is gone.
When I am here by myself, the grief of the life that was but is no more, hits me like tsunami waves and carries me away for a while... often by surprise.

The busyness of my life right now is my saving grace. It keeps me focused on our future, and keeps this ache in the void in check.

So here is to graveyard shifts, preschool crafting, and math homework.