these things I know to be true

1. Drake is the love of my life - and proof that despite circumstance and things out of my control, Jesus loves me.
2. Drake will most likely cause me to be bald by pulling my hair out.
3. I need to learn to be a firmer parent - for both our sakes
4. I love love love love love my sister. Without her my life would be dreary and gray.
5. I am so blessed. I forget it a lot. I forget that these things that I have in my life are because of #1 and I have worked so hard for them.
6. love is never a mistake. Loving Richard was not a mistake.
7. Love is not wasted. My love for him was not wasted. If nothing else I can stand before my creator and say that I loved him as Christ commanded us to love. I prayed for him, I submitted to him, I carried his baby.... all of these things... not wasted. He chose to throw it away.. but like most things... that is on him - and he will have to answer for that.
8. I am not defined by my parentage, my broken marriage, or my failed pregnancies - I am defined by Christ's love for me and my love for Drake - - end scene
9. I screw up a lot - I get moody and frustrated - ill tempered and bitchy. I lose sight of the good things and allow all the bad things to rush in and lay stone eggs in my chest.
10. I am hopelessly flawed but thankfully, his power is made perfect in my weakness.


and thanks to Merissa, I remembered that I too am loved.